It's Roman's 1/2 birthday. Once again I can't believe we've made it this far. I wasn't sure there was any room left in my heart to fully love another baby, the way a baby deserves. Seemed to me that all the space was already occupied by M and Simon.
The thing about Roman is, he's charming. Our love grew naturally- as would with a fancy new boyfriend, who becomes your best friend who never leaves your side. I can say that I love Roman more than I thought I could. This bond has brought us close through the hard times we've had together.
These last 6 (12) months have been a doozy. Let me tell you. A year ago I was in the throws of morning sickness (also on a boat in Greece, which didn't help). And it seems like yesterday that I was sifting through baby names with not-so-helpful baby naming apps on my iphone:
The thing about Roman is, he's charming. Our love grew naturally- as would with a fancy new boyfriend, who becomes your best friend who never leaves your side. I can say that I love Roman more than I thought I could. This bond has brought us close through the hard times we've had together.
These last 6 (12) months have been a doozy. Let me tell you. A year ago I was in the throws of morning sickness (also on a boat in Greece, which didn't help). And it seems like yesterday that I was sifting through baby names with not-so-helpful baby naming apps on my iphone:
This pregnancy came with new aches and pains and a toddler to chase as well. Roman was born a perfect little baby, but soon struggled with silent reflux and eczema in extreme forms. We've enlisted live-in au pairs to help out and we're slowly getting back to normal life. It's been an incredibly challenging time for me, as I have been sleep deprived and stressed with trying to find answers to help him, and care for Mason and a house and work. I've often felt like I was trying to appear normal and say normal things in social situations when all I really wanted to do was curl up on the floor and fall asleep in a corner somewhere. I do, however, feel like we're ready to come out of hiding and participate a little more with reality. Starting with responding to many emails, and adding some posts. Roman has had a good attitude even though he's been uncomfortable, and loves to learn and play. He is so lucky to have Mason as a playmate from the start. Mason loves to make him laugh and they already play together on the floor.
I've been surprised to find how protective M has been of the baby. When someone else holds Roman, Mason cries and leads me to him saying, "baby baby" until I take him and he feels much better. If Roman is crying, he will pat him, hold his hand or rub his head, also leading me to him to help. Once Mason was sick himself, with a fever, and still tried to comfort Roman when he began to cry. I'm starting to see how it is that brothers are such an important parts of the other's life. I can't fully describe one without telling about his relationship with the other.
The best news on the horizon for our family is that we have our tickets booked to the states from Oct-Dec this year. It will be Roman's first trip to the homeland. I can't wait to show him off to family for the first time and give him room to roam (no pun intended).
Our last trip home, I was 5 months pregnant, and just flew straight from London with Mason on our laps. As the plane touched down, Simon leaned toward the window and said,
"I can't wait to party it up in LA tonight."
And was completely serious.
I told him to have fun because I was exhausted and going to bed. I felt him come home around 2 or 3 AM. I woke up around 9 and walked into the kitchen to find this piece of evidence on the table:
Simon wearing a zebra top hat at Dimples Showcase? Hm. I now have this photo on the fridge because it makes me happy to see my boys having a good time.
I've been surprised to find how protective M has been of the baby. When someone else holds Roman, Mason cries and leads me to him saying, "baby baby" until I take him and he feels much better. If Roman is crying, he will pat him, hold his hand or rub his head, also leading me to him to help. Once Mason was sick himself, with a fever, and still tried to comfort Roman when he began to cry. I'm starting to see how it is that brothers are such an important parts of the other's life. I can't fully describe one without telling about his relationship with the other.
The best news on the horizon for our family is that we have our tickets booked to the states from Oct-Dec this year. It will be Roman's first trip to the homeland. I can't wait to show him off to family for the first time and give him room to roam (no pun intended).
Our last trip home, I was 5 months pregnant, and just flew straight from London with Mason on our laps. As the plane touched down, Simon leaned toward the window and said,
"I can't wait to party it up in LA tonight."
And was completely serious.
I told him to have fun because I was exhausted and going to bed. I felt him come home around 2 or 3 AM. I woke up around 9 and walked into the kitchen to find this piece of evidence on the table:
Simon wearing a zebra top hat at Dimples Showcase? Hm. I now have this photo on the fridge because it makes me happy to see my boys having a good time.
5 comments:
Julie, I've missed hearing from you! It does seem that the beginning months of a baby's life are a sleepless blur, and I can only imagine how difficult it's been for you. You are truly a wonderful mother and wife. Seriously. I look up to you in more ways than you know. Can't wait to see you in several months. :) I'm sure we'll come see you in Cali but you're more than welcome to come visit in Arizona if you'd like. And we can finally meet each other's new babies!!!
I got tears in my eyes reading the cuteness about M and Romes. While your dying from lack of sleep the most beautiful things in life are occurring. Some of my favorite moments with V have been in the dark hours of the morning with one eye open.
I think of so many things when I read this post. I know what it means to have hard times with babies. Both my boys had acid reflux often with projectile vomiting. Not fun for anyone. I can't even count the number of times I had meltdowns at home although no one really knew about it except Cameron. I think you are doing a wonderful job loving all those boys. I am still waiting for John to like Grant... it will happen sometime, right? Will you be coming to NYC on your trip to the homeland? I would love to see you and the boys.
I've missed you posting! I'm glad to hear things are looking up a little, and before you know it you'll be back in the States with your family to help all day :) I think you're awesome.
loved everything about this post. :-)
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